Kaleidoscopes & Tightropes | Poem by Brit Nicole @poeticallybrit

Kaleidoscopes & Tightropes

I let you go.

Slipping through my fingers

Like water on the run

You were never mine to catch

Knew it from the moment we met

We smiled and I saw the future

Friends forever? maybe

Lovers? Not yet

I'm way too awkward to have swag

Just brought along my pen and pad

Thought to make use of my offering

In an attempt amuse you

Muse you, include you

Until I started writing dope lines that infused you

For when I couldn't muster up a simple "hello"

Started sending silly little love notes

That allowed you access to my psyche

Not sure how far I wanted this to go

The lies we tell ourselves

If anything, the heart always knows

We commenced, the writing was on the wall

An enigma became us

Curiosity led me to fall

Kaleidoscopes and tightropes

My nerves went through it all

Late nights, early mornings

Still, I knew something was wrong

I would scribble your name in my melody

Until you became my song

Set the track on repeat

So you could always put me on

Closed my eyes for just a moment

It was no surprise, you were gone

I must be that sucker for love

Who longs for the many signs

Like the ribbon in the sky

Chasing the clouds

Begging for their blessing

To let your heart find mine

Playing devil's advocate to my own lies

As the truth played back

While I laid back in my own mind

"He's not the one"

So I ask myself, what am I doing

Why even try

To love without relent

If in the end you say goodbye

Encountering a mental deficit

From poor emotional investment

Growing weary from my giving

But in my giving, I'm strengthened within

In the name of love or something like it

I'd do it all over again

Though it's getting harder to breathe

Do not be deceived

If chance should acquaint me once more, I will not hesitate

This is me saying yes to love again before I suffocate.

/Brit Nicole @poeticallybrit